Kelli J Gavin
Ah, Miriam. My love. My life. I will miss you. I know how hard this is for you to see me
like this. You always raved about how strong I was and that I could do anything I put my
mind to. This illness has taken its toll. Daily, my energy seems to decrease. Thank you
for your love and encouragement. Thank you for all that you do. For caring for my
needs, bringing me to frequent doctor appointments, and for keeping me company. I
know that I am not the best conversationalist anymore and I can’t keep track of the
subject at hand. Thank you for your patience and the reassuring pat of your hand on my
forearm. And for always telling me that everything will be okay.
Please make sure that Andrew knows that he is the best son a father could ever ask for.
It was as if I hit the jackpot when it came to having a kid. And Miriam. My love. You are
such an amazing mom. Even now that Andrew is an adult. You are always there to
guide him and give him advice. Thank you for reminding me to never be harsh. Thank
you for reminding me that he was always watching and looked up to me. Thank you for
helping me be the kind of dad that I want Andrew to remember.
I have decided I will not say goodbye to you. I want you to hold my hand and kiss me
goodnight, but do not say goodbye. Because if I have anything to do with it, I will see
you again in Paradise. I have been trying to figure out if it is possible to bring my guitar
with me when I pass away. I know this doesn’t sound logical, but I keep questioning
what I will do with my hands. Music has always been a part of me, of who I am, of all I
know. Will the music be provided when I pass away? You should know, I don’t want
anyone to play the guitar at my memorial service. They may not be good, and I don’t
want the last thing people remember about me to be the poor guitar player at the
funeral. Please just have someone play the piano. Maybe avoid having anyone sing.
Just instrumental music is fine with me.
Thank you for pulling out the photo albums and keeping the memorabilia from all of our
trips over the years. Thank you for reminding me even when I forget. Thank you for
knowing I needed the reminder, but never drawing attention to the fact. Thank you for
the way you encouraged me to reminisce.
Miriam. I love you. And couldn’t think of a better partner to write music about all these
years. I will always love you. Forever and always.
Kelli J Gavin of Carver, Minnesota is a Writer, Editor, Blogger and Professional Organizer. Her work can be found with Clarendon House Publishing, The Ugly Writers, Sweatpants & Coffee, Zombie Pirates Publishing, Setu, Love What Matters, Printed Words and Southwest Media among others. Kelli’s first two books were released in 2019 (I Regret Nothing- A Collection of Poetry and Prose and My Name is Zach- A Teenage Perspective on Autism). She has also co-authored 15 anthology books. Her 3rd and 4th books will be published in 2020 and 2021. Kelli is currently writing a book of fiction short stories.
Her blog can be found at www.kellijgavin.blogspot.com .